Walled-in


She built walls
Of granite around her.
Recoiling from confrontation,
She fortified her castle,
Making the facades stronger.
Each caustic word she endured constructed
Another layer.

Beyond the wall,
Her transparent front appeared petrified.
A warm smile or greeting failed to
Thaw the frozen sea within her.
Her stony expression
Was devoid of feeling-
She could not give love
Nor could she receive love.

The tumultuous waves crashed
Against the walls, but their efforts were in vain.
Unwavering, she peered down from the turret.
The white water jumped higher,
But she was always a tread ahead.
Only relentless determination
And unrequited love could
Unlock the iron gate and gain entrance.

Stony-hearted, she unintentionally
Reeled Romeos in and
Cast them back over the precipice
Into the dark, frigid sea.
Drowning,
The lovers were dragged away
By the undertow,
Far away from her feelings.

         ~ Anonymous




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Jen Eraser Cutlet by Jennie
Poem by a Cutter named Lissa
Pixie Cutter and My Road Happiness by Mary
Ouch and World War 3 by Anna
A Girl and Her Knife by Lucy
Poem by a 15 year old Cutter named Janette
Painless Pain
Nothing Left and Guilt by Helle Marie, born 1984
Poem by a Cutter
Silver Blade by Shawna
The Razor
Two poems by KeyserSzze
Four poems by ~Exacta
Self Mutilation and Surrender
Cuts by Angel
Broken Child by Kathy B.
Hidden by Kim
Cutters: An essay about cutting by Cutting Blade.
Ritual by the weeping wanderer.
Poems by Kitty.
Scars by Amanda.
Savage gift by Dylan.
KBD's World by Kayla.
Three Poems by Sara.
Where to Turn by the Gentle Giant
Two Poems by Kara
Shaggy Red Carpet by Megan, age 15.
Fallen by Mey
untitled poem by Ashton
Razors Edge by A.M.
scratches and poetry by The Phoenix Princessa
Sweet Release by Patti
Choices by Kayla
Pain by Adrian
two poems by Erica
Walled In by Anonymous
"Do you" by Sarah, age 15
poem by anonymous
Confetti by Aileen
razorbladebloodstainedmirror and i snap out by Ashton
Three Poems by Jarod
Five Poems by Pryncess Crys

I welcome the contributions of others who self-harm or have done so in the past. Send us your writing, or arrange to send us your art or music by e-mailing RAZOR at zanne@cea.edu

Check out SCAR, a zine on the subject of scars and self-harm.
The content of these pages may contain "triggering" material.
to CUTTERS, a page on the subject of people who self-harm.
The content of these pages may contain "triggering" material.
to The History of Child Abuse
Contents Under Pressure Razor's writing about experiences she had during a 13 year bout with DSH and five times she was institutionalized.
to Leap Frogge Leap was locked up in mental institutions when she was a kid. Leap refers to them as "the Institutes."