Fallen

I'm sinking deeper
this feeling won't subside
although I promised
I wouldn't do it again.
There's a compulsion,
a burning desire
to reach out and grab
the rusted scalpel
feel it pierce my flesh
hear the sounds of penetration
that warm-sick effect.
The wound begins to well
Just one more cut
And then you'll see...
the first drop trickling
I'm playing with the rush
Why won't it bleed more?
The pain's fading
into a deep numbness.
I'm shaking now
What have I done?
I quickly wash the blood off
The burning's just beginning
Why am I doing this!!!
I don't know
I can't explain
I won't explain
Just letting go, forgetting
it ever really happened
Anything ever really happened
It's all a dream
A senseless world
what do they know
What do they care?
I'm just feeling low
I'll be fine tomorrow
Laughing and joking
Coz the scars don't go away
and the blood don't drown the sorrow
and the knife , the knife
just don't cut to the issue.

        -Mey

Work of Art Poem by the mother of a young cutter.

Letter from a Cutter One cutter has bravely penned a letter of goodbye to cutting.

Letter from Dylan A cutter's letter to other cutters.

Chinese Medicine and Self Harm A potential direction for healing and recovery.

Poem by a Cutter

The Cut by Shawna

Jen Eraser Cutlet by Jennie

Poem by a Cutter named Lissa

Pixie Cutter and My Road Happiness by Mary

Ouch and World War 3 by Anna

A Girl and Her Knife by Lucy

Poem by a 15 year old Cutter named Janette

Painless Pain

Nothing Left and Guilt by Helle Marie, born 1984

Poem by a Cutter

Silver Blade by Shawna

The Razor

Two poems by KeyserSzze

Four poems by ~Exacta

Self Mutilation and Surrender

Cuts by Angel

Broken Child by Kathy B.

Hidden by Kim

Cutters: An essay about cutting by Cutting Blade.

Ritual by the weeping wanderer.

Poems by Kitty.

Scars by Amanda.

Savage gift by Dylan.

KBD's World by Kayla.

Three Poems by Sara.

Where to Turn by the Gentle Giant

Two Poems by Kara

Shaggy Red Carpet by Megan, age 15.

Fallen by Mey

untitled poem by Ashton

Razors Edge by A.M.

scratches and poetry by The Phoenix Princessa

Sweet Release by Patti

Choices by Kayla

Pain by Adrian

two poems by Erica

Walled In by Anonymous

"Do you" by Sarah, age 15

poem by anonymous

Confetti by Aileen

razorbladebloodstainedmirror and i snap out by Ashton

Three Poems by Jarod

Five Poems by Pryncess Crys

I welcome the contributions of others who self-harm or have done so in the past. Send us your writing, or arrange to send us your art or music by e-mailing RAZOR at zanne@cea.edu

	Check out SCAR, a zine on the subject of scars and self-harm. The content of these pages may contain "triggering" material.
	to CUTTERS, a page on the subject of people who self-harm. The content of these pages may contain "triggering" material.
	to The History of Child Abuse
	Contents Under Pressure Razor's writing about experiences she had during a 13 year bout with DSH and five times she was institutionalized.
	to Leap Frogge Leap was locked up in mental institutions when she was a kid. Leap refers to them as "the Institutes."