So Far, So Good 7/25/99


Heartache's never looked so good
So close I can feel it
But no one's ever understood

Cut me open, watch me bleed
I feel nothing now
And nothing can stop me

Sorrow's ripe in my fields
Ready for a numbing
A wound that heals

No one else can hurt me
And I hurt no one
I've run into this
And now I'm alone

Keeping my eyes open
And watching like a hawk
Continually piercing pain
Can't bring myself to stop

I don't remember when
Hurting so bad ever felt so good
No, hurting so bad
Never felt so good


"An ode to this poison river"


it's coming
i'll hold back the tears
fear grips me
i'm straining to breathe

all the times i died
and my soul cries

carpet stains
of crimson pains
death threat knife
in wounded hand

all the times i died
and my soul cries

i'll bleed again tonight
i keep trying
one more time
it's never ending
poison river
cleanse my mind

        -kara



Work of Art
Poem by the mother of a young cutter.
Letter from a Cutter
One cutter has bravely penned a letter of goodbye to cutting.
Letter from Dylan
A cutter's letter to other cutters.
Chinese Medicine and Self Harm
A potential direction for healing and recovery.
Poem by a Cutter
The Cut by Shawna
Jen Eraser Cutlet by Jennie
Poem by a Cutter named Lissa
Pixie Cutter and My Road Happiness by Mary
Ouch and World War 3 by Anna
A Girl and Her Knife by Lucy
Poem by a 15 year old Cutter named Janette
Painless Pain
Nothing Left and Guilt by Helle Marie, born 1984
Poem by a Cutter
Silver Blade by Shawna
The Razor
Two poems by KeyserSzze
Four poems by ~Exacta
Self Mutilation and Surrender
Cuts by Angel
Broken Child by Kathy B.
Hidden by Kim
Cutters: An essay about cutting by Cutting Blade.
Ritual by the weeping wanderer.
Poems by Kitty.
Scars by Amanda.
Savage gift by Dylan.
KBD's World by Kayla.
Three Poems by Sara.
Where to Turn by the Gentle Giant
Two Poems by Kara
Shaggy Red Carpet by Megan, age 15.
Fallen by Mey
untitled poem by Ashton
Razors Edge by A.M.
scratches and poetry by The Phoenix Princessa
Sweet Release by Patti
Choices by Kayla
Pain by Adrian
two poems by Erica
Walled In by Anonymous
"Do you" by Sarah, age 15
poem by anonymous
Confetti by Aileen
razorbladebloodstainedmirror and i snap out by Ashton
Three Poems by Jarod
Five Poems by Pryncess Crys

I welcome the contributions of others who self-harm or have done so in the past. Send us your writing, or arrange to send us your art or music by e-mailing RAZOR at zanne@cea.edu

Check out SCAR, a zine on the subject of scars and self-harm.
The content of these pages may contain "triggering" material.
to CUTTERS, a page on the subject of people who self-harm.
The content of these pages may contain "triggering" material.
to The History of Child Abuse
Contents Under Pressure Razor's writing about experiences she had during a 13 year bout with DSH and five times she was institutionalized.
to Leap Frogge Leap was locked up in mental institutions when she was a kid. Leap refers to them as "the Institutes."